Another month is almost over. One more to go and this year is gone.
And then you wonder, “So what have you done?”
You look at your to do lists and the New Year’s goals scribbled on the pages of your journal.
And like a magnifying glass, your eyes zoom in to the ones unchecked on your list. Everything you have not accomplished, everything you think you failed to do.
Your jeans still don’t fit quite right.
You had less date nights with your husband than you really wanted.
You still get impatient with your kids.
You still wish you knew how to balance things and you had more time for everything you wanted to do.
Let me hold your hand and tell you, “It’s okay. You did good.”
And instead of looking ahead and see how far you still have to go, I want you to turn your head gently back to the past so you can see how far you have come.
The fact that you’ve woken up for the past 300 mornings or so, the fact that you’re still here, that means you have succeeded at life.
You did good.
She jumped and she built her wings on the way down
This is when I like to sit back and take a good look at the year that is almost gone.
My 2012 was surely a challenging one.
After finally taking the leap into freelancing and working at home last year, I had to get my act together to prove to myself that I made the right choice.
That I could take care of my kids and still fulfill my passions. That I could be more than just a wife or a homemaker, I can also be a provider for our family.
Who knew building wings could be so damn painful?
This year was certainly a tough one. And if I were to put my miserable lens on, I would definitely be wallowing in self – pity by now.
But the beautiful thing about life is you can choose create your own reality. And no matter what happens around you, you can always write and re-write your own story.
So I am putting my grateful lens on and giving myself some credit.
In January 2012, I chose to keep my goals simple:
- I am spending more time with my husband and kids
- I am getting active and fit
- I am developing myself mentally and spiritually
- I am building a thriving and enlightened business
I continued with my part time teaching job so I still had 5 days in a week to spend with my family. I wasn’t always perfectly present. But it was certainly an improvement from the 5 days a week + 10 hours a day absence that my schedule used to be.
On most days, I’ve been there to greet my girls when they open their eyes in the morning. I saw them off to school and waved goodbye until they were out of sight. I was there when they got home. I was there to sing them “Someone’s Waiting For You” as they closed their eyes at night.
I went to the gym and ran around the UP Oval a few times a week. I did yogilates. I danced Zumba. I tried biking for five minutes before I got dizzy and gave up. But I still tried. My clothes fit better and I don’t eat rice as much as I used to.
I’ve read more books and actually filled a whole Moleskine journal. I took up meditation again. I’ve been meditating now every day, every morning for almost a month straight.
A few months ago, I fully embraced motherhood and I committed to fulfill my heart’s work through this blog.
I am holding my first ever workshop in two weeks, another dream coming true.
My wings are getting stronger and I am learning how to fly
There were times when I wished things would be easier.
But when I look back at all the tough times, I knew I had to go through them.
All those difficulties moved me to look within, to find answers in silence and to recognize a Higher Power who has gifted me with a purpose and the talents to fulfill it.
I am thankful…
Abundance Meditation by Deepak Chopra
This was actually a 21 – day meditation challenge that Chopra launched via Oprah’s Super Soul Sunday. I love how the meditation tracks start with words of wisdom from Chopra. Then he gives you a mantra that you will meditate on in silence for the next 10 minutes or so.
I’ve done meditation before sporadically but this challenge has inspired me to do it daily first thing in the morning. I haven’t succeeded at being totally silent yet. My mind still goes on overdrive when I meditate. But there are pockets of peace when the voices fade away and I am still. I love how a few moments of silence can heal your soul almost instantly.
And as I’ve mentioned before, another major benefit of meditation is you gain a calm and patient disposition. It’s a good way to get ready for those moments in the day when your kids fight, get cranky or downright demanding.
If you’ve thought of trying meditation, here’s a great video where Chopra gives his top tips.
Law of Divine Compensation: On Work, Money, and Miracles by Marianne Williamson
I am totally in love with Williamson’s work because her words have a healing effect on my spirit. I downloaded her new book the moment it hit the Amazon shelves and I’ve been reading a few pages everyday after meditating. Enlightening, comforting, soul satisfying.
In any situation where you seem to be at the effect of forces over which you have no control, remember that God dwells within your mind, and there are no forces over which he has no control. Therefore through his power within you, there are no mortal conditions over which you are powerless. Whenever your good is obscured by the appearances of a non loving world, the universe is programmed to lift you out of that condition and return you to an abundant state.
I love how Laporte frames goal setting within the Strategy of Desire. Her idea is similar to Abraham’s “feel the feeling first and manifestation follows” principle, delivered in a much cooler and down to earth way. It was a pleasure listening to this audio excerpt because she has a gentle and soothing voice. Feels like a friend sharing her lessons in life.
Knowing how you actually want to feel is the most potent form of clarity that you can have. And generating those feelings is the most powerfully creative thing that you can do with your life…You’re not chasing the goal itself, you’re chasing the feelings that you hope attaining those goals will give you. You can go for whatever you want, just know why you are going after it.
How to Develop the Movie of Your Life by Devon Franklin on Super Soul Sunday
Franklin is the Vice President of Production for Columbia Pictures and he has worked on movies like the Pursuit of Happiness and Karate Kid. He is also a man of strong faith. He was celibate for more than 10 years before he married actress Meagan Gooding. I guess you could say he’s a pretty amazing and wise guy.
Sometimes we get so frustrated in our lives but we have to go back and say ‘Wait a minute, do I know what the BIG IDEA of my life is supposed to be? If my life is a story then I have to know the point of my story… Sometimes you’re going from scene to scene to scene with no idea what your intention is. In development, not only do you co-write the script with God, but you are the star of your story.
One month to go before the New Year but I’m giving myself an early start. I’m spending this December focused on possibilities for the year ahead. And grateful for the blessings yet to come.
What are you grateful for today?
This post is part of the Optimommy weekly feature: TGIF or Think Gratitude, It’s Friday. At the end of each week, I’ll write about things, people and experiences I am thankful for. Tell me yours through the comments below.