Tears are welling in my eyes and my hands are trembling as I scroll down my computer screen at four in the morning.
I scroll down the list of scholars and there it is: my name listed on number 9.
I stare at the list for a few more minutes, a smile slowly spreading across my face.
It feels just as I had imagined a few days ago. Awe. Excitement. Happiness. Gratitude.
I shake my husband still sleeping on our bed, I feel like I have to tell somebody or I’m gonna explode.
He stirs and opens his eyes just a little. I hug him tight, tears streaming down my face.
I whisper in his ear, “I got in. We did it.”
Have you ever wanted something so much, you knew you just had to get it?
More than two weeks ago, I found myself at another crossroads in my life.
I was on break from my teaching stint in the university and I had no schedules for training.
And while it was fun to be a stay at home mom in the meantime, I felt a strong need to do something about my work and career.
I wanted to help my husband to provide for our family. So my choices were, either I get a job or I figure out a way to make money doing what I love.
Of course, getting a job looks like the responsible thing to do, but my inner self struggled with it.
Even as I asked for openings from the previous company I worked for, I was half-hearted about it because I knew a job would take me away again from my children and force me to leave them with the help.
I’ve been through that road before.
And I knew there had to be a better way to balance being a mother, providing for my children and fulfilling my passions.
I retreated to my journal and wrote about all the things I am passionate about and I wanted to do.
I am passionate about writing, parenting and personal development.
I love blogging.
I love connecting with people.
I love inspiring people to live better and happier.
I love helping them to become more positive and proactive about their goals in life.
By the end of the page, I had finally made a decision.
I want to be a mompreneur with an Enlightened Business.
I want to be the Chief Inspiration Officer of Optimommy.com — a community that inspires and empowers moms to become intentional parents and happier women. I want a community of moms who can balance raising a loving family while living the life of their dreams.
My *Unique Soulful Proposition* (USP) is to use inspiration and empowerment to help make the world a happier place, one mom at a time.
This may all sound confident now but truth was, I was scared of making the move. I knew nothing about business and even less about making money from doing creative work that is not in an office.
But I had a purpose and what I lacked in know how, I more than made up for with the intense desire to be a present mother to my children and to live my dream.
Besides I already have an idea and a blog to start with. All I needed was someone who was already doing what I wanted to do.
Someone who can teach me about how to have a thriving online business.
Once I made the decision, everything fell into place
When I found my way to Marie Forleo and Rich, Happy and Hot B-School, I knew it was exactly what I needed. Everything she said in the video resonated with me. At first, my goal was: “Make money, be present for my kids.”
For B-School, it was “Make money, change the world.”
It challenged me to think bigger. And I wanted in.
They say when a student is ready, the teacher will appear.
I was ready and I had found my teacher.
I watched the free videos, over and over and over. I scoured Marie’s blog for every single nugget of business wisdom that I could find.
I already knew something as comprehensive as B-School would have a steep price. And while I know it’s worth it, I had to be realistic. I didn’t have that much money yet.
So I made it a goal to get into B-School. For free.
When Marie announced the scholarship, my heart was racing with excitement. I knew it was my chance and I won’t just try, I will give it my damn best shot.
My TV producer instincts kicked in. I wrote my 2 minute script, made my shot list, asked my best friend to be my videographer and scheduled our pre-production meeting and shoot. I talked to my husband, my video editor, and I told him I just had to do it.
I know two minutes was far from a grand production, but I felt that it was one of the most important productions of my life.
Everything was all set. We would shoot on Friday, edit on Saturday and upload on Sunday.
But I had to face the gremlins
On Friday morning, the gremlins started talking. No, they started bashing me.
What do you think you’re doing? You can’t possibly make the cut. You’re just a mom.
But I was ready to hit back.
I am a mom and I have something to contribute to this world. And I will do what it takes to live my dream and still be here for my kids. I will make the cut. Watch me.
Yes, even optimists get gremlins too but I tell them to shut their mouth and kiss my… cheek.
For the next three hours, my kids and I played, painted and sang songs while my bestfriend clicked and recorded every moment.
My two – minute interview was shot for almost two hours because every now and then, someone would tug at me, “Mommy can I go to the bathroom?” “Mommy, can I take your picture?” “Mommy, are we done yet?”
At the end of the day, I was poofed but I felt good. I felt inspired.
On Mother’s Day, my husband and I set up shop on the dining table. The Mother’s Day treat had to wait. We spent the whole day editing my video and polishing it as best as we could.
As I was about to upload my video, my heart sank a little as I saw hundreds of B-School submissions in Youtube.
Can I really make it?
Thankfully, my inner cheerleader took charge.
You’re already at the home stretch, Just keep going.
I uploaded my video to Youtube and before the anxiety could kick in, I decided to let go and do something that felt good. I went back to my computer and made a Mother’s Day slideshow for my Mama.
In the true spirit of letting go, I tried not to think about my video or check Marie’s blog, Twitter and Facebook for the announcement. Emphasis on tried because I failed a lot of times during the days that followed.
My inner cheerleader chimed in again: Who knows, maybe she’ll pick two or three? You may have a chance.
By Wednesday, I asked myself, what would I be doing if I knew I was going to B-School?
I came up with a list:
- I would tidy up my blog
- Write more content
- Arrange my social media plan
- Brainstorm ideas for products and services
- Connect with other moms
I read the B-School curriculum and imagined watching the videos and soaking it all in.
I imagined the community of moms I am gathering, the friendships and connections we are building, and the thriving abundance that comes from doing your work of heart.
It felt good.
I had just finished writing a blog post that Friday morning when I read Marie’s update that the winners have been announced.
Some would probably think it was luck. Coincidence.
I would like to think of it as deliberate creation. The magic that happens when you take inspired action.
Do you have a dream that you’ve always wanted to come true?
I am here to tell you that it can come true.
I believe you have that dream because God, the Universe, Higher Power knew you can do it.
I believe that whatever you want in your life, you can create it.
And it all begins with a decision to do what it takes and once you’ve committed, everything will fall into place.
Let’s break down the five steps to deliberately creating your dreams:
1. Decide. Know what it is you want to achieve and commit to it. Not sure about what it is you want to do? As my mentor Marie Forleo said, “Clarity comes from engagement not thought.” So yes, think about what it is you love to do and want to do, then DO IT.
I had to go through nine years of TV work, two years of a regular job and a few months into teaching to get clear about what I wanted to do. And I’m clear now that this is what I am meant to be doing.
2. Write down your goal and believe you can achieve it. There is tremendous power in the written word and even the words that you tell yourself.
When I decided to join the run for the scholarship, I wrote it down in my journal, tweeted about it and posted about in Facebook, not to earn bonus points, but because I wanted to reinforce my belief in myself.
Oh the gremlins will come, you can be sure of that. But you can get rid of them. Squish them, squash them, silence them, kick them out the door. They won’t go back if you don’t let them in.
3. Take inspired action. I love taking inspired action because it makes work effortless. And when I say effortless, it doesn’t mean you won’t do the work.
I didn’t lie down in bed the whole day and think “I’m getting into B school. I’m getting into B-School.”
I did the work, I wrote the script, we spent hours shooting and editing. Yes at some point it was physically tiring, but it always, always felt so good to do it. It felt easy. It felt natural. I felt that it was the thing I am meant to do.
Have you ever had a job that seemed relatively easy but you feel like dragging yourself to work each day and you come home drained both physically and emotionally? That is how you know you’re working too hard.
What would you rather choose: hard draining work or inspired fulfilling action?
4. Act as if. What would you be doing every day if you were already a business woman, coach, yoga instructor, (fill in your dream here) __________?
How would you organize your schedule? What tasks will you be doing every day? How would you dress up? How would you communicate with other people?
Do those things and feel it. Go after those feel good moments that your dream is coming true. And it is.
5. Let go and feel good. Somewhere along the way, you’ll find yourself wanting too bad to make it happen and that may do more harm than good.
Abraham said, “You may not always know what to do next, but you’ll always know how you want to feel.” And most of the time, we want something because we think it will make us feel good.
If the goal is to feel good, then what can you do right now that will make you feel that way?
Go for a walk. Take a nap. Write a blog. Call a friend.
Ultimately, decide that you will take charge of your own happiness.
Before you know it, your dream is manifesting into reality right before your very eyes.
What do you believe in?
But Jayme, that’s easy for you to say. You have a husband who has a job and friends who support you.
I have no job. I have no one to support me. I have no money. I have no talent. I have no _________.
For a long time, I didn’t think I could do business. I was raised in an employee culture: study – get a degree – get a job. My parents were employees. We grew up with very little money. I thought businesses are just for rich people.
I had to stop making excuses that were preventing me from success.
I had to start believing that it is indeed possible to live your passions and be rich, happy and hot while you’re at it.
I’ve seen so many people suffer from their excuses and waste their potential.
But I’ve seen more people who are living proof that when you believe in yourself, you can do anything.
Remember that whatever you believe in is true for you.
If you think you can, you are right. If you think you can’t, you are right too.
What do you choose?
Now here’s what I want you to do next….
Focus and practice deliberately creating your dreams.
Focus: I want you to think of your dream and the things that you love to do. If money was not an issue, what would you rather be doing? What would be your work of heart? Believe that your dream is meant especially for you, and you have it in you to succeed at it.
Practice: Take that dream and start doing the five steps to deliberate creation.
- Decide what you want to do and commit to it.
- Write it down and believe you can achieve it.
- Take inspired action.
- Act as if.
- Let go and feel good.
Promise yourself that you will do what it takes. Wake up earlier. Sleep later. Ask for help. Try something new. Enjoy more. Frown less. Go out of your comfort zone.
I can already see you coming back here and telling me three words I would so love to hear:
“I did it!”
Are you ready to make you dream come true?
In the comments below, share with us your biggest, most passionate creative dream.
As I have experienced, there’s great power in the written word and releasing your dreams to the Universe.
So let’s start now and create the life you’ve always dreamed of.
I’m so excited to hear the amazing things you are meant to do and create.
I believe in you!